By Definition, A Crush Must Hurt 5

"If this world were to end, there would only be you... and him... and no one else."
-Dr Lilian Thurman, Donnie Darko

"Come on Tarquin..." Emily spoke gently, the pale, cloud filtered light filling the gaps between the door that framed her. Tarquin slipped on his musty grey suit and looked toward her, unable to see her backlit face. "...Tarquin"
"I'm coming" he replied, getting used to the smooth leather soles of his father's shoes and walking to the backlit girl.

The two walked to the car, the gravel of his parent's poorly sealed driveway announcing the start of their journey to the funeral home. Tarquin opened the door to Emily's car "Thank you..." he said, Emily stopped, looking up at the awkward man child "For coming with me... I appreciate it." Emily gave a smile, he hadn't seen that smile in a long time. Tarquin missed that smile and replied with the same. Emily had not seen his for longer, she too missed it.

The pale ghostly white light that shone through the overcast sky seemed to wash out the city, bringing out the greys and silvers for all to see. The moisture in the air could be felt in the sinuses and between the joints. The atmosphere was heavy, low and distant, clouds rubbing together in the horizon, creating static to be held and discharged at a later time and place. The old Chrysler moved slowly between the early Saturday traffic, the two sat, their silences rubbing together, creating static.

The funeral home was of the usual garish limestone brickwork reminiscent of the Nineties. The glare of the clouds reflecting the sun was no more evident and damaging to the eyes than here. Squinting, Tarquin stepped out of the old Chrysler cursing the fact the he was doomed to wander the Earth with a head that would make the trendiest sunglasses look awkward and misplaced. His father waited for them by the entrance "Emily, it's great to see you girl" he greeted her with a kiss to the cheek, then looking to Tarquin's feet "Nice shoes"
"Where's Sylvia?" Tarquin asked, ignoring the shoes comment
"Tark, please" Tarquin's father placed his hand on his son's shoulder "Today, you will call her mother...please" Tarquin replied with a nod "Thanks boy. I appreciate it..." he rubbed Tarquin's hair "Go say hello to your Mother" he ordered with a slap on Tarquin's back.

Five hours later

Tarquin's head leant against the car window, looking at a bubble in the tint, the trees of his parent's neighbourhood distorting as they pass through it. Tarquin; drunk, tired, looks at Emily. He hadn't seen her in years but it was really only months, exactly three months to the day. Three months to the day she had broken up with him in a shitty chain coffee shop in a shitty chain mall. Three months to the day he had his nose broke. Three months and one day ago she was his. She catches him looking "What?" she inquired, her eyes frustrated. "That man knows who killed Osric."

Three hours earlier.

The old Chrysler pulled back into the poorly sealed driveway, joining the ranks of other cars now parked at the charming character house in a charming character suburb. Two older gentlemen in silvered moustaches were slouched on the cedar railing of the balcony, smoking, drinking, chewing. Tarquin stepped out of his ex girlfriend's vehicle, the smell of pipe and cigar, gin and rye, cheese and frankfurts. They give Tarquin a friendly nod and light pat on the shoulder, their mouths dry with ashen tongues. His father hears Tarquin enter and calls from the kitchen "Tark!" summoned, the son walks down the jarrah floored corridor. "What took ya?" the older Dangerfield asked. "There was an accident on Seville, traffic took for ever" the younger replied
"Typical, all those nosey bastards rubber necking. Should'a took Chelmsford"
"Yeah... well... we're here now"
"hmmm" the father drained the rest of the Glenmorangie and slapped Tarquin on the back, Tarquin not letting the sting show. "You did a great job back there kid!" the father moving to Emily, "...and you. You're beautiful, come here!" the large, portly man embracing Emily "This one is a good one Tarquin! I like this one, you look after this one!"
"He does, don't worry" she replied, going along with it.

One hour earlier.

"The wake shall be held at Mr and Mrs Dangerfield's residence. They invite you all to join them there. Thankyou and may God be with you" the Chaplain preached as the gaggle went their seperate ways. Tarquin looked around the maudlin crowd, the cemetery; a beautiful green, shaded by ancient oaks gave a surreal hue. On a small mound, beside one of the old oaks Tarquin spotted a man. He stood by the trunk, cigarette smoking, black suit. blonde hair, thick black glasses. Tarquin squinted through the glare as the black figure sipped at a takeaway coffee mug. "Tarquin!" a hand broke his curious gaze, Emily "You did good Tarquin" she said with a punch to the arms, her soft smile almost wiping his memory of everything but. "Whatchya lookin' at?" Emily asked, wrapping her arm into his. Tarquin looked back at the old oak on the hill "Nothing".

Four hours later.

Tarquin sat on the brown couch, the test on the television, a single malt resting in his hands resting on the brown couch. "You're Tarquin aren't you?" a voice called through the commentary of the cricket. Tarquin looked to the voice interrupting his drunken malaise. The man from the hill. "It could be" he took another sip of the brown liquour "depends who's asking." The man reached into his jacket pocket, pulling out a white handkerchief and placing it over the neighbouring arm chair before sitting "My name is Niles" he added, shaking Tarquin's hand "I'm sorry for the loss of your brother Mr Dangerfield" as Niles spoke he busied himself, pulling out an alcohol wipe, opening it, cleaning his hands, he did this without thinking, feverishly, as if an outside force were compelling him "I represent my client. Now my client is not unreasonable. My client is sad for you loss and understands that it must be hard to lose a member of the family..." Tarquin's knuckles whitened around his tumbler, teeth clenched. "I've been fortunate enough to have access to the police reports Mr Dangerfield and I assure you that there was no third party involved in your brother's death..." Tarquin's heart skipped and rallied, his pulse grew faster "Your brother was a fucked up loser junkie nothing mor..." Tarquin threw the contents of his glass onto the floor, grabbing Niles' freshly pressed, crisp white shirt and pressing the glass tumbler against his face but not breaking it. "Nothing more?" Tarquin growled through teeth clenched firm. His plan would be to watch it crack and smash into Mr Niles' face. Watching the glass burst and enter... "What the fuck is going on in my house?!" Tarquin's father boomed "Tarquin?!"
"It's alright Mr Dangerfield..." Niles replied, staring at Tarquin "... I believe I was just leaving" Niles slid slowly out of Tarquin's grip. "Thankyou for you time" he said, collecting the handkercheif from the arm chair and left, quietly, cold. Tarquin looked at his father, dropping the tumbler to the floor, the glass splintering and scattering underneath the nice furniture. "I think you should too boy. Go sleep it off..." the father said, sipping at his Glenmorangie and floating back into the other room "...Emily, take your fancy fella home".
"Who the hell was that?" Emily asked, she had heard the noise from the garden and had come, undetected by Tarquin to investigate. "Just an old friend..." Tarquin replied, walking to the long mahogoney hallway, staring down it "...nothing more."

To be continued...